Monday, September 20, 2021

Flipping out...

“Continuous improvement is better 

than delayed perfection…”

- Mark Twain


Life gets simple when things go haywire in your body - accidents, illness, unexpected events that take you down. When this happens, everything slips away, and the focus settles squarely on getting better.


I knew I wasn’t going to die, but it was all I could do to get home and lie down. Tucking in, I lay motionless like a stone on a riverbank – a dead weight waiting for the wind and rain to wear me away, returning me to the elements from whence I came. The nausea was so bad, death might have been welcome…miserable would be understating!


The day arrived…

Friday was busy. In the morning, I met face to face with my department chair. It was the first time in a year. It was good but merely a temporary stop on my way to the afternoon. I had been thinking about Friday afternoon since confirming the lesson and, like a kid at Christmas, I could hardly wait!


I got to the pool early, and there she was. I waved and headed her way. She said she had a baby to teach, but we could get started as soon as the short session was over. 


Backing up a little…

After a COVID break, I've been in the pool for several months. It is Olympic size, fifty by twenty-five meters. On most days, the lanes cross the width of the pool to accommodate more swimmers. Because of the COVID, one-hour blocs of time had to be reserved. Armed with a center-head snorkel and goggles, the fifteen hundred meters I usually get are mindlessly relaxing. Water acts as a large body stocking and lying horizontally removes gravity's tug on blood returning to the heart. It's a win-win for all three of us – body, soul, and spirit!


Over the past few months, I noticed a woman giving swim lessons. She stood out because she was dressed neck to wrist and toe in black. I was curious because black is a substantial heat sink! In addition, she wore a wide-brimmed hat with a lot of zinc oxide protecting her face. In sum, it was hard not to notice her. Additionally, she appeared to be obliviously focused on her students.


Backing up a little more…

The pool events in this year’s Tokyo Olympic games were impressive. Maybe more so for me because I had been in the water for a while before they began. The performances were terrific to watch. But the swimmer's doing flip turns at the wall of each lap was mesmerizing – poetry in motion, a dance so smooth and pleasing, the tumble turns alone kept me glued to the screen.


A kernel of thought began to emerge in the back of my mind.


I wonder if I could learn to do that?


Kismet!!

Earlier in the week, after showering and getting back into my shorts and mask, I thought.


If that woman is still here and not teaching when I leave, I will approach her.


Leaving the locker room, there she was!


Striking up a conversation, I asked if she might be willing to teach me to do a flip turn. She said she could, but in her experience, it was difficult for older folks to learn but added, "I’m happy to give it a try."


We set a date for the coming Friday, and I was over the moon.


Friday afternoon arrived, and there she was. I swam a few warmup laps while she was with the baby, and then the lesson began.


“Let me demonstrate,” she said.  “The key is tucking your head, bringing your knees in, and driving with your arms forward to aid the rotation. Be sure to blow air out of your nose while turning so you don’t fill your sinuses with water.”


Great! Here we go!


I tucked my head, pulled my knees to my chest, blew air out of my nose, AND lo and behold!! I bobbed up and down like an apple in a tub of water - hmmm, that didn't work.


“Let’s try this, she said. “Push off the side of the pool, and then try it.”


Following her instruction, I got a partial flip. 


"Not bad, for the first time, she said. “Let's try again."


By the end of the ten or so trials, I could execute what passed as a flip. It was kind of thrilling. 


“Nice work,” she said.


This was step one. Approaching the wall, flipping, and pushing away was down the road, but this was a start! 


I thanked her as we got out of the pool and noticed my stomach was a little unsettled. It was just a touch, but when I stood up, I began to feel increasingly nauseated. This wasn't good. 


Getting to the locker room was challenging because it was getting worse. By the time I got to the car, I was uncertain whether I could get home. The ten-minute drive seemed like it took forever, and the nausea was not getting better but worse. Molly met me in the garage and helped me to the bedroom. By this time, the best I could do was get horizontal in the darkened room. Unlike the water, lying flat in bed was NOT edifying for my body, soul, or spirit! 


Fortunately, I was able to sleep, and within a couple of hours, began to feel a little better trying to process what had happened. It was then I realized it was the balance center of my inner ear. The flipping in the water had been disorienting, and small fluid-filled canals in my ear didn't like it one bit. Unfortunately, it never occurred to me to have done a little work to prepare them for the challenge. So, they reminded me that balance and spatial orientation were their business, not mine. They made me pay and it wasn't pretty! 


By Sunday, I felt normal enough to ride my bike with no balance problems. I decided that If I can't do this, I won't.  But a single trial was not enough to dampen my enthusiasm. 


Nelson Mandela once said, “Everything is impossible until you do it.”


We’ll see Mr. Mandela…we’ll see…


- ted

Sunday, September 12, 2021

It was always about love...

“When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood 

as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became 

a man (woman), I put away childish things…” 

1Co 13:11


Looking across the table over lunch, it was as if only a day had passed since being together. But, in fact, it had been years! She was in town for a few hours on her way to somewhere else.


That’s the thing about friendship, isn’t it? A timeless space where the only thing that matters is being together. I think one of the most basic human desires is to be in ‘no time’…‘a zone’ where nothing is measured…it just is. 


To be fair, we had Skyped sporadically…but in person? It had been nearly two decades. There is something about face-to-face that is powerful. The world slips away, and it takes on a life of its own for however long it lasts. This was it, and there we were! You know what I’m talking about.


There was another time we sat together. We were not alone then. A group of five or six youngsters was sitting on the floor in a semi-circle. The lesson was just finishing when a little hand shot up.


“Yes, Ashley. A question?”


In a small and halting voice, she said, “Uh, well, uh, I mean, uh, I thought we were going to talk about sex!”


I could barely contain a chuckle. When I recounted the story to her over lunch, we both laughed out loud!


This forty-one-year-old woman was six or seven at the time and in a very different space.


Then…

I was part of a spiritual community for three decades. It was a group of Bible teachers and students. It was not a fellowship of legalists accepting every word as literal truth, but rather one that believed the scripture was a guide for spiritual growth and enlightenment. 


Growing up in a family as a preacher’s son, I can't remember when I did not have an interest in the scriptures. My father read them around the table. My mother added substance and love telling Old and New Testament stories.


When I left my family’s harbor of spiritual safety, I found that religions were not the same as my experience. In broad brush strokes, the churches I attended fell into two categories…social gatherings, with a little scripture tossed in or lots of scripture that subtly increased guilt and shame in parishioners.


The former, while enjoyable, did not feed my spiritual hunger; the latter, steeped in carrot-stick teachings (be good or be punished), offended my sensibilities. It was refreshing to find a group that was serious about scripture study for the sake of understanding rather than control. A people who understood spiritual growth takes time and can’t be legislated.


What about sex?

I thought it might be a good idea to teach a sex education class to the church in those early years. Having done some health counseling within the congregation it became apparent that while spiritual understanding was substantial, the women and men knew little about their physical bodies. 


The elders agreed but didn’t want it to be an event that reinforced religious myths and taboos. If we were going to do this, it was to be open and honest. The good news was that we had some nurses and health educators within the organization. 


Off to the races…

A small group of us prepared the curriculum, and a teaching day was set aside. 


The adults were put in mixed-gender sessions with films, handouts, and hands-on anatomical models. For most, it was the first time they had ever heard open discussions about their bodies. 


The children got half a day. There were cartoon books with basic age-appropriate information. One of the models was a pregnant belly that could be opened to see the baby in the womb. The 'baby' could be taken out for the children to pass around and handle. They were fascinated and had lots of questions. How did the baby get out? What was it doing in there? Surprisingly they didn't have much interest in how it got there in the first place.


Many questions were answered that day, and myths dispelled. You could feel a sense of freedom and relief amongst the adults. It was a rousing success!


Then there was Ashley. When I asked her what she meant, she wasn't clear but was sure we had never talked about sex.


This is now…

Sitting across the table from this vibrant young woman could not have been better. For a while, I had been her teacher but always been her friend. 


We caught up on each other’s lives, sharing stories about families and friends. We laughed a lot and had some moments of quietness. And then, in a blink of an eye, she was gone.


I revisit that little girl sitting in a semi-circle with her hand in the air from time to time. That day I didn't exactly know how to respond to her comment or address her underlying question. 


I do now!


Ash, wherever you are…you were right. That education day at the church was never really about sex. It was always about love…


- ted