Sunday, February 22, 2015

Some colors are brighter than others…

Interdependence is and ought to be as much
the ideal of man as self-sufficiency.
- Mahatma Gandhi

“I’m 85 you know, and thinking about slowing down some,” he said as we chatted on the phone.

The mind is a curious thing, because to me, he had not aged at all.  I had to actually stop to realize and appreciate that it had 30 years since our first conversation.

"This is Dr. Russell, I’m calling for Ted Dreisinger.” 

“This is he,” I replied

“I was given your card by Janet W.  I’m looking for someone to help me with a project and I understand you can write.”

I would have no way of knowing how that phone call would change everything in my life, and I mean everything.

Looking for a mechanic…
Garth Samuel Russell was a busy orthopedic surgeon who was looking for someone to help him write an education book for his patients.   While I didn’t know anything about orthopedics, I had been teaching kinesiology, the study of the anatomy of movement, so had a little vocabulary.

He wasn’t actually looking for an employee at the time; just someone to help him put together an informational book for back pain patients to help them understand things they might encounter both from a surgical and non-surgical perspective.  We made a deal and the project took about a year and a half to complete.

In the course of that time, I went from a part time writer to employee, who along with Janet W. put together one of the first outpatient, metric based spine rehabilitation centers in the world. It was Columbia, Missouri. It was 1987.

The Columbia Spine Center was unique, in that it was mostly exercise strengthening and endurance machines, all designed to measure the progress of patients participating in the non-operative rehabilitation program.  The original facility included doctor/staff offices, locker room/showers, an X-ray machine and a small work hardening area. In all, the facility was nearly 10,000 square feet.  Because my background had been in cardiac exercise physiology, we also had a fully equipped EKG treadmill testing system.

Vision AND substance…
I would have had no idea this man was one of the most politically influential spine surgeons in the American Academy of Orthopedic Surgery, or that he was connected to, or knew practically every luminary in the field of spinal surgery.  This was Mid-Missouri after all.

When that first call came, I was teaching at a small university in Jefferson City, Missouri.

‘The call,’ and subsequent years provided me with an education and a doorway to a world beyond my imagination.  For nearly a decade, Russell took me to dozens of clinical and scientific meetings, introducing me as his director of research.  He liked the idea of being in private practice and having his own research person.  None of his private practice colleagues had such an animal.  He did, because he could!

Dr. Russell taught me to move with ease in the academic and clinical orthopedic community.  Over the years I prepared uncounted numbers of talks for him, as we developed a rhythm of professional content and trust.  Simply traveling with, presenting papers along side and attending functions of his choice, gave me levels of credibility some work lifetimes to acquire. Attending clinical and scientific conferences, as well as meeting people that influenced the field, shortened my learning curve in immeasurable ways.

He also taught me ‘my place,’ meaning that as long as I stayed in my professional playing field, I would be able to do anything.  “You are a PhD, not a Doctor of Medicine.  Act like what you are and there will be few barriers.”  He was right, and because of his guidance and advice, I have had, by now more than 30 years of the most incredible professional and personal experiences!

He was a visionary, an iconoclast who understood the importance of acting and making decisions.  He believed in sharing what he knew and learned.  He would say, “All the boats rise when the water does.” He was the first man I met who would listen to an idea and say, “Why not?”  There were few things we thought about that we did not try.

Slipping into my mind…
I was thinking about Dr. Russell, because since his first retirement, he began spending more time in West Palm Beach, Florida.  I had occasion this weekend to be in Jupiter, just a few miles north of his place and thought I might visit with him.  It would be a quick 36 hours for me, in Friday night…an event Saturday evening and out Sunday morning…

As fate would have it, he was in Columbia, Missouri preparing for a court case testifying as an expert witness, which he had done uncounted numbers of times in his long, generous and successful career.

“I’m sorry I’ll miss you on this trip,” I said.  He agreed and I told him I might try to catch up with him in Columbia in the next few months. 

“That would be nice,” he said.

“I guess, I just wanted to hear your voice and tell you how I appreciate the career you provided me,” I said.

It isn’t the first time I had told him this, and his open humbly gentle response was as it has always been, “Ted, you are too kind.”

I thought, as I have every time he as said this, Me? Too kind to you?


I used to say that to him, in some ways robbing him of the compliment.  I don’t do that anymore…sometimes it is more blessed to receive…

- ted

Sunday, February 15, 2015

Time to start living...

“Life isn’t about finding yourself,
it’s about creating yourself.”
- George Bernard Shaw

It’s quiet in the mornings when I get out of bed.  I try to remember to say, “Thank you” as I put my feet on the floor – one word for each foot…I try to…

My friend Frank uses the shower as a reminder for his life, with something like, “Thank you for the gifts you have given me. Help me to be a better man today.”

The thing is, we are a couple of older guys who try to look at life as though we were young guys. While there is little doubt the end of the story is much closer than the beginning, AND there is little doubt there are a few more aches and pains, we still express gratitude for what has been and look forward to being better as life continues to rush toward us.

Perspective and the journey…
Gail and I were talking about this a couple of days ago.  She is a neighbor who has retired from a successful working life, but continues to ask the questions and seek the answers related to, “What’s next?”

There is, after all the small “…what’s next…” and in a cosmic sense the bigger “…WHAT’S NEXT?!" 

One has to do with what is coming in the short term and the other?  While I have certain confidences, I am uncertain about the details…

In the small ball of ‘…what’s next…’ I am graduating from giving scientific/clinical talks to local lectures related to life and imagination. 

That’s right – graduating! 

There are a few items on the horizon related to my professional journey, but as life moves forward, a need to connect with people in my local community has grown considerably.

Teaching a workshop…
These issues are on the top of my mind, because I prepared and taught a workshop this week called Life Reimagined for the American Association of Retired People (AARP).  I took the course last year and decided to become certified as a ‘guide’ for others who have an interest in resetting their imaginations as a guidepost for the future.

You remember your imagination, right?  That indefinable thing that emerges early in life after the ‘starter dough’ of faith and curiosity have taken root.  Once we get enough experience…enough vocabulary of life experience, our little minds begin to entertain the possibilities of what’s next.

It has to start somewhere…
My first realization of what I might want to be happened because of television.  Watching sports, I made the decision I would be a professional athlete - I was probably five or six.

“Daddy, when I grow up, I’m going to be a professional athlete.” I said with great seriousness.

“In the summer, I want to play for the Cleveland Indians…in the fall for the Cleveland Browns and in the spring for the Boston Celtics!” 

Bob Feller pitched for the Indians, I was pretty sure the ‘Browns’ were named after Jim Brown, and was there a better basketball player than Bob Cousy of the Boston Celtics?

“Honey,” my father replied, “you can be whatever you want to be.”

As fate, talent and circumstance would happen, my imagined rolls on the field, gridiron and court never really emerged. 

I had to re-imagine my future as life moved forward.

This week…
Friday morning, 15 upper middle-aged folk made their way into the classroom at the local library to see what this Life Reimagined thing was all about. 

Since I had actually never taught this course before, I began, “These are the words you never want to hear when you get on an airplane. This is my first flight!”

I was really wondering how this event was going to go!

In a nutshell, the program provides tools to help people get unstuck when their lives have stalled because of personal tragedy, loss of a loved one, retirement, or just a need to find structure to move forward…not solutions, but direction.

Life has moments when we feel comfortable, a place that is familiar and a rhythm that seems to be working.  Life, however, IS change!  Nothing ever stays the same – from the size of our feet…clothing…shifting work life…growing families…everything! 

Life is unpredictable, and in the words and music of Stephen Schwartz for the Broadway musical Pippin – No time at all – originally sung by Irene Ryan (Ma Clampett in television’s Beverly Hillbillies):

Before it's too late stop trying to wait
For fortune and fame you're secure of
For there's one thing to be sure of, mate:
There's nothing to be sure of!

The Life Reimagined workshop is a couple of hours dedicated to reflecting about past life accomplishments and the imagination and effort they required.  It is a program that uses these experiences to remind people they were driven by their imagination and while life may have taken a toll, their imaginations were still intact…their lives, going forward were about ‘reimagining’ what they would like to be doing, and a reminder of the skill sets they already had.

One might say the watchwords for this course could be found in the chorus of that Broadway song:

Oh, it's time to start livin'
Time to take a little from this world we're given
Time to take time, cause spring will turn to fall
In just no time at all....

Event complete – life continued…
In the end, the ‘first flight’ went well for all of us.  In many ways, it brought together for me, all of the life communication skills I have developed and an appreciation for just how similar all of us – every single one of us – are. 

I can’t say what the impact of the experience had on all of the attendees, but a room that began with 15 strangers, finished with a group who felt their lives were anything but over…a room of fellow travelers who had made lists of small accomplishable things they could begin almost immediately…a room of people who realized they were not the only ones feeling the sense of free floating anxiety, wondering what’s next?

Gratitude…you bet!
When I got out of bed the next morning, ‘Thank you” seemed particularly meaningful.  When I got out of bed, I thought about Frank’s words and was more thankful for the gifts I have been given…when I got out of bed I felt more strongly how much I want to continue to become a better man…


- ted

Sunday, February 8, 2015

Closing the loop...



“Two possibilities exist: either we are alone in the
Universe or we are not. Both equally terrifying.”
- Arthur C. Clarke

Tucson is not a place you “…get to from here…” so, usually, homeward bound flights change either in Dallas or Chicago – it was Dallas this time on my way home from New Jersey.

I had just settled into 20B when a voice said, “I think I’m by the window.”  I smiled and said, “Well then, I guess this row is done,” and slipped into the aisle as he took his seat.

I have a small verbal toolkit to determine whether I will engage my seatmate on flights. Marcus Aurelius says that if you have a choice between working, or interacting with another human being, you should engage the latter, so I look for opportunities to see what is going on in my fellow passenger’s minds.

The questions…
Usually I gently probe with a something like:

“Are you heading out or going home?”

If heading home: “Where are you coming in from?”
If heading out: “Where are you headed?”

Two or three follow ups related to what kind of work they do; how they got started in their job; did they enjoy the time with (or looking forward to seeing) their family/etc., and I can tell quickly whether I am going to be chatting or working for the rest of the flight.

The chat…
After the ‘…seatbelt/oxygen mask/nearest exit/read the card in the seatback pocket…’ announcements were finished, I wondered whether this fellow would be interested in a conversation.  Not the totally dullest tack in the box, I picked up on his accent immediately and said,

“What the heck is a Brit doing going to Tucson?”

In this case, it was the only question necessary to get the conversation going.

Andrew was compact man in his fifties, wearing non descript greyish clothing that was casual and comfortable looking.  He had spent 25 years in British Intelligence before joining the IT security team of a well known international company, and was heading to Tucson for an annual meeting with an elite group of colleagues – game on!

As I sort of expected, he didn’t/couldn’t talk specifics regarding his work, but was very engaging in the broader brush strokes of his profession.  He had worked to monitor emerging issues in the Middle East and among other things, had thoughts regarding how to defang some of the extremist, terrorist threats in which the West has found itself entangled.

He had been fascinated with computers from a youngster, and began talking to me about one of his hero’s Alan Turing.  He talked about Turing’s efforts in developing the first rudimentary mechanical device (not rudimentary at the time) to unlock Nazi Germany’s ‘enigma’ code. It was that successful effort that permitted the Allies to win World War II.

Being a deeply informed individual, I said,

“Yeah, I really enjoyed the Imitation Game too.  I saw it a couple of weeks ago!”

With the subtlest of questioning looks, he indicated he didn’t know of the movie, he was simply a fan of Turing!  It was a little hard to recover from the shallowness of my ‘Turing knowledge,’ but I said, a little lamely, the movie was great and that Benedict Cumbarbatch had given a spectacular performance.

“I’ll make a point to see the film when it comes to England,” he said. 

“By the way,” he continued, “there is a film called ‘Castles in the Sky’ you might be interested in seeing too. It is the story of Robert Watson-Watt, who invented radar, saving Britain from being completely devastated by Nazi bombing in the Second World War. It sounds like it a bit of a parallel to the Turing movie.”

I wrote it down!

When I got home, I looked for the film and found it was NOT available with American ‘on demand’ services.  Broadcast in September of 2014, it was a ‘BBC Two’ production not yet in release here.  I had given it a good effort, but it became clear I was not going to see that film anytime soon…no big deal.

Nice flight, engaging conversation – done. Next?

The ‘loop’ from this chat would not close for more than a month.

Recently overseas…
A couple of weeks ago I was in Denmark on business and came home through London.  I had a meeting there, so stayed two nights with friends. 

Spending time with people you know is SO MUCH BETTER than tucking into a sterile hotel room somewhere.  You merge, ever so briefly, into their lifestyle, and because it was the end of the weekend…the lifestyle was relaxed.

Sunday evening, we watched episodes one and two of the first season of the BBC’s Sherlock Holmes, starring Benedict Cumbarbatch.  After seeing these, I was even more impressed with the actor.

Then, in a moment of inspiration, I asked whether we might find and watch ‘Castles in the Sky.’  As it turned out, they had premium services, but NOT BBC Two…Oh well, not so big a deal.  I would tuck it away for a future time.

Monday, however as fate would have it, my meeting was in a part of London near the Sherlock Holmes’ Museum.  I didn’t realized it until I put together the route (train and underground) taking me to Oxford-Circus station where I would meet a colleague.  Heading into the city early, so as to be sure I would know exactly where I was going, there was time to walk the few blocks to the museum.

I thought,

This is great! I just watched the Sherlock films last night and by chance, 221B Baker Street is close enough to visit!

I found the Museum and the famous 221B Baker street address with little trouble. 

I love it when unexpected things like this happen!  They provide subtle shades of color to the tapestry of my life…a lovely experience.  Next?

Heading home…
Tuesday morning, it was off to Heathrow…home to Tucson and my own bed! When I return home from a trip, there is little more inviting than slipping between familiar sheets and drifting into the nocturnal netherworld of comfort and Technicolor dreams!

I had some work for the trip, but it was 10 hours from London to Dallas so there would be time to nap, read or watch a film.  Chasing the sun (heading west), by the way, means the entire flight is in the daylight.  Somehow that seems to reduce jet lag – at least for me.

After a couple of hours and dinner, a film seemed like a good idea, but as is often the case, there wasn’t anything interesting.  The ‘new releases’ didn’t catch my fancy and the available television shows were equally uninviting.  I thought I would see what offerings there might be in the foreign film section.  There were two films, one of which turned out to be – ‘Castles in the Sky!!’  Are you kidding me!?

It’s not that this film was a burning issue for me; it wasn’t really that I felt it was even important.  It was that I had given my best effort to try and see it, both at home and with my friends in London…It was just that when I put the idea behind the back burner of my brain, it showed up as one of the foreign films on the flight!

Yeah, you might be saying to yourselves, “So what? – What’s the big deal?”

I understand sentiment, but that would be because you are not me. 

My life has been full of these small reinforcing vignettes…so many; in fact, I have come to expect the unexpected.  That is not exactly right…better said, I have come to enjoy these little presents – gifts really – from God. They constantly remind me that when I let go, accept and trust the process of the Universe to do its thing, I have the most wonderful little ‘touches’ that so enrich my life.


Yes sir, when those open loops close – and many of them do not…or at least I don’t know they do – when those open loops close, the wonder and overwhelming magnitude of it all…reminds me somebody, somewhere is watching me out of the corner of his eye…

- ted